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Decolonial Love Notes to Myself

December 3, 2015
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by Jana-Rae Yerxa


I want to be fucking great!
Not in an egotistical way
Where it’s about dominance
No, not like that
This wanting
This desire
This need
Is rooted in love
Only love
A humble, righteous Anishinaabe love

I want to be fucking great!
Where I feel alive and exhilarated
I want to be seen
Surrounded by people that truly see me
I want to be celebrated by others
For the very things that I love and admire
About myself
Where I am appreciated
Because I know I am incredible
And they do too

I want to be fucking great!
I want to invest
In myself
In others
In doing things that help me to thrive and bloom
Where I am constantly evolving
To be
The best version of me

I want to be fucking great!
Where I am honouring my gifts
Those that were given to me
By sharing them with the world
And rather than them coming out
Because I have to push against
They are welcomed and embraced
Because I have found my place of belonging

I want to be fucking great!
Where I am not scared to say this
That I want to be fucking great and amazing
Where it is okay for me
To say this out loud
And not be misinterpreted
Because this is what I strive for
You feel me?
Where it is okay to be
Fucking great and amazing!
Because that is what I am
Fucking great and amazing!

Jana-Rae Yerxa is Anishinaabe from Treaty #3 Territory. She belongs to the Sturgeon clan and her home community is Couchiching First Nation. She has a Masters of Social Work degree from Lakehead University and a Masters of Arts degree in Indigenous Governance from the University of Victoria.

7 Comments leave one →
  1. December 11, 2015 9:01 am

    Let’s take a moment of silence to remind ourselves how fucking great we are.
    Love this!

  2. December 11, 2015 10:32 am

    This is EXACTLY it! I love it, and I feel it with passion. Thank you!

  3. heleneberko permalink
    December 12, 2015 12:04 am

    This is beautiful
    It placed my recent emotions and issues into words.

  4. December 12, 2015 11:04 am

    I love this! I know just how you feel 🙂

  5. December 13, 2015 3:08 pm

    Reblogged this on The Impact of Food Deserts and commented:
    This is amazing, I love it. Thank you for such strong poetry. You are F#@king GREAT!

  6. katrinavastag permalink
    December 14, 2015 1:10 pm

    Yes and yes.

  7. December 16, 2015 3:53 pm

    I love the words. So much. I believe though there won’t come a point in our life where we would say:” We are fu#@king great”. We are already now as great as we can be.

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